Sunday, April 25, 2004

just because someone doesn't love you the you want him/her to, doesn't mean that he/she doesn't love you with all he/she has.

we're all too selfish to see that, don't you think? oh well.

yesterday's oral was.. alright i guess. i screwed the english one up. during the second conversation question, i literally spent abt 20 (?) seconds going "uh yeah. erm. so it's like. uh yeah. like.. erm. wait." hahah. i think she wanted to die and i wanted to die too! mind was too blank, i don't know why. but i was q happy with my chinese so, yeah.

after oral, annie came over :) hahah. ordered two pizzas and by the end of the day, we both finished one each. hahah. finished snow angel volume two. this toro is so hot. and dcf was being so irritating, he deserves to die. but there's a volume three but i can't watch it until after my chinese os. how joyful. anyway, had fun :D

OH YEAH. my dearest, sweetest, most baobei partner lisa found siying's present for me. on friday, i went all around town alone to go look for it but couldn't find it. walked till my legs wanted to die. but i'm so glad it still exists :) siying are you reading this.. I FOUND IT!

hmmm. stuff happened on friday. mrs gek is really, really nice. guess that really woke some of us up.

tuition in 20 mins. yucks.

"i thought i was over you. but then i realised, that's only because i don't see you."

i heard that in some mtv. hmmm. i found it q interesting, but not necessarily true.


12:08 PM

Thursday, April 22, 2004

snow angel volume two is out! it's out out out! annie just called to tell me. so happy :) will buy it tmr and (extremely) hopefully, if annie wants to come over on saturday, we can finish it all at one go. i hope she agrees. hmmm.

both english and chinese oral on saturday. yucks. i really dislike picture describing.

hmmm. what's been happening. things are pretty bad. so many people are having problems, and i hope everyone will be ok soon.

been pretty homely lately. and studying more because exams are nearing. right after that, two weeks of intensive chinese. i'm excited for that :) mdm lim's lessons are the only lessons i look fwd to, and the only one i'm not willing the clock to tick faster. then comes chinese os. then intensive lessons during our non-existent holidays. then prelims. then os.

speaking of that, it's betty's (my maid) birthday today and she got like one hugeee bag of presents. and i'm so sad because i won't be getting that. i mean, i'll probably only be getting stuff from annie and kai cause they're the only ones not taking chinese os, which so conincidentally falls on my birthday (hahah) and no one will be able to prepare. i'm hinting. so annie and kai, for the thousandth time, you guys know what to do. hahah. alright la i'm kidding.

and i'm damn sad because siying's present is no longer there. i don't care if it takes me the whole sg, i'm going to find it. annie will be accompanying me on the hunt tmr. thanks dear :)

oh yeah. had steamboat yesterday with annie and laura :) wah so blissful!

this who is so cool you know :D hahah lisa wants to kill me. so does annie. but again, toro's still the best la of course. i love toro!

alright. i have nothing else to say.

bing leng de yong bao, shi wen de wei xiao
jie ju mei xiang xiang zhong hao


5:26 PM

Friday, April 16, 2004

sports day was alright. so many cool people. hahah. cheered with my favourite cheerleaders for our favourite animal, and she did so well! yeah la, but since when she never do well. ysy is so cool too! this michelle got 2nd for 100m, after ysy. she really did netball proud man. and laura, it was a great run :) glad you pushed yourself and completed it. you proved yourself this time, but anyway, you still have to take good care of yourself yeah? love loads.

an eye for an eye, as simple as that. but above all that, i still want to let you know how important you are to me. i know i'm going to let you down by doing this, but i don't see myself having any other choice.

wang zhe ni tian shi ban de yan jing
shuo ai ni, shuo wo ai ni

7:30 PM

Thursday, April 15, 2004

i'm not exactly in the best of moods. no idea why. just feeling really.. frustrated. @#$%

today, i finally told lisa what/who i was unhappy with. cause we were on the topic and i guess we're feeling the same thing, jut different people. i think she didn't really expect it but yeah.

nvm. today was fun fun fun :D hahah. we went mad when r&b came. fionne, tinwai, kai, annie and i. hahah. we were like the "fake fans" screaming our heads off? it was q embarrassing but really fun! thing is i don't even know a single one of them except zaizai. then tinwai was like "each of us shout one name blah", but the problem is all of us don't really know anyone and it'd be terrible if we scream and shout the name and there's no such person. hahah. but anyway, it was fun la. a break from all the hectic work. hahah.

ok anyway. tmr's sports day. hmmm. feeling lazy.

snow angel volume two is not out! so sad. i bought a toro magazine today :) he was on the cover page. so good-looking!

"if we fall apart, people are going to leave." khin knows how to phrase things well.

anyway, i think i know why i'm frustrated. because my hp keypad is majorly pissing. so if i don't reply your sms or sth, please be understanding. i'm going to throw it out of the window sooner or later.

shang xin de bu zhi shi wo, xiang xin ni ye dong.


8:50 PM

Tuesday, April 13, 2004

i'm back!

and i still love toro. like hell. toro toro toro toro toro :D

past few days have been slackish. annie, da and i had our swensens day yesterday! hahah it was alright. watched the prince and me after that. wasn't as nice as expected but oh well.. the guy is hot. and yep he's number 13 on annie's list. -shakes head-

bought my snow angel book! wah toro's too hot man. can't wait for volume two to come out. yeah i know i'm sixteen and i should get a life but i can't help it! dad's in taiwan now.. will ask him to get some toro stuff back for me. you know, r&b is in the same company as him and since they're coming to our school on thursday, i'm really excited cause i'm contented just being able to see his friends. -beams-

has chinese mock today. did my ying yong wen and zuo wen until i want to die. was too hot in the classrooms so joyce and i did it at the library, and annie joined us afterwards.

i'm feeling q alot better from friday and saturday. those were crap man. but yeah, load off my chest :)

i know i'm getting more and more irritable. but it's not only that. you're getting more and more self-centred too, aren't you? don't play me around just because you know i'm willing to be there, don't take me for granted. don't ever do that because you know i'm already trying my very best. you know it.

wo de li chang, wo de gan shou
ni you mei you shi zhe xiang guo.

have you ever?



6:57 PM

Thursday, April 08, 2004

it seems like so long since i last came. feel drifted from the "computer world".

i still love toro. alot, alot, alot. been spending money on his stuff. and annie still wants to kill me. hahah oh no.

whole playlist filled with toro and energy songs. but i'm not crazy.. i liked some of them since last time ok.

anyway, today was really hectic. chinese test, emaths test, pe (THANK GOD it's not 4 1/2 rounds today), history "test", english time trial, biology test, chemistry lab. could have died. but it passed q fast. till the end of the day, think i lost my mind or sth. was rubbishing to lisa during chemistry.. think she wanted to strangle me :P

after school, tbp with annie, da and siying. ate at ljs. walked around. love my darlings. and i can't wait for our swensens day!

i've got nothing to say. except.. YOU BLOODY BASTARD. i really felt like tearing you up.

received khin's letter today. snail mail is so fun :) hold on, and hold on, and hold on, in faith. yep.

anyone who knows any toro website, please tell me. muacks.

wang bu liao de shang tong,
jiu rang ta chen mo zai bing tian xue di


9:10 PM

Monday, April 05, 2004

i just came to say.. I LOVE TORO! i love love LOVE toro :D

hahah. i think annie wants to kill me. i guess i'll be talking abt him 24/7 for the next few weeks. you can ask him to try to be a little hotter. too bad so many people like him. but he's mine. mine mine mine. how come i never noticed how freaking good-looking he has always been. hahah. kai will start her lecture one me sitting on a mountain being too dreamy again. nanana.

your everything is becoming more and more unimportant. i still see you in my dreams, and i still reach out, but you're always walking away. but as long as i don't see you again, i'll guess i'll be alright. time heals all wounds.

been studying. will go finish up some maths since i have no hwk today. or maybe start revising my biology if i want to be consistent. but consistency is almost impossible.

can't wait for snow angel vol two to come out. oh no i feel like a little childish girl, drooling over toro. but it's alright i like that feeling. heh.

although i don't know what's going on, but i feel selfishness taking over. -slaps self- forget it. you're not obliged to even explain to me anyway.

life has been good to me and i can't ask for more. i just want to study and be with my friends and keep loving toro.

I MISS LISA.

kong fang jian zhi sheng xia wo de wu nai


7:35 PM

Saturday, April 03, 2004

been sitting infront of the tv the whole day. bought snow angel! the one that toro and dcf acted in. i don't want to say this.. but i prefer toro. in the show only. :X hahah. and i can't deny that toro is better looking than dcf, but it's alright, i still love him :D and the girl is so pretty.

anyway, came online to prepare some stuff for siying's birthday. and it's like, on 12 may? i'm such a sweet bestie right. hahah. can't help it la her birthday is always during our mids, so never really got to do much for her. and since she hand-makes every year (maybe save money only. JUST KIDDING), i shall do sth nice for her :)

speaking of that, i sent annie porridge just now! hahah. dropped by her house. that poor girl, still sick. but i hope sweet me :D helped to speed up her recovery.

suddenly, i miss netball. i miss flying. hmm.

having a bad headache. from all the tv. and all the food. this is so sinful, and it happens every weekend. -frowns- going out for dinner later. oh nvm.

i like watching vcds, discs after discs. i like reading too. they really make me sink into the whole storyline, and when i stop, i'll feel like i've lost touch with the real world. which is q cool because toro is so hot!

so i shall go back to watching.

oh. and lisa left for hk today! no partner for a day :( how can she leave me aloneeee. but anyway hope you'll have fun there. i want my partner back in a piece so take care! buy stuff back for me! muacks, will miss you :D

i had a dream last night, i dreamt about you.


5:40 PM

Thursday, April 01, 2004

today is april fool's day, once again. i remember, it was this day, a year ago, around 830 pm when i heard the news. i was in the car with my family, i was shocked. and i remained in shock for more than three months. up till today, i still cannot explain why it mattered so much and how exactly i felt, but it was a very difficult time. i'd always remember annie and khin's faithful support. without them, i'd never have grown out of it. but i still want to say, i hope he's doing fine, wherever he is now. leslie :)

oh well. these few days have been busy. work, and more work. a little scary, but i'm enjoying it.

i'm going to get like 5/25 for my amaths test? it's not difficult difficult. the concept is there, but the qns are just hard to understand. and i panicked alot cause there was too little time. :( and i need to get my transformation clear because it's supposed to be easy. not the least bit to me though. ok enough. all the stress.

classroom block is so hot and stuffy. but i miss those days when we'd just stand outside the classroom looking at rubbish. hahah.

"i have nice classmates. but not all" hahahahahahahah. laura is so funny. i have nice classmates too :D whee. i think lisa's damn irritated with me already. and she called me bitchy today. grrr. cause i couldn't stop telling her stories abt coward. hahah. oh well. and i love my netballers too!

i miss siying. been a long time since i really talked to her. shall call her one of these days.

off i go :)

you played with my heart, you played with my mind
but i miss you finally.




5:33 PM