Monday, May 31, 2004

today was a great day :)

firstly, thank you to everyone who messaged :) was really comforting to know that some of you actually remembered, esp celine. got a real big shock. thank you for the gifts, wishes etc. to some of you.. i'm still expecting my present! hahah.

chinese os. it was really q ok and if nothing goes wrong, my A1 is safe. but i can never be too sure.

hmmm. anyway, had two cakes. one from joelle, lisa and kai. the other from them, baked by annie and da. although i ate until i wanted to burst, it was great :) i made 4 wishes two times! hahah.

town with annie, da, joyce, laura and siying. watched the day after tmr (tuesday, joyce). it was so scary. hahah. hmmm. walked around, joyce and siying left. the four of us like dragged ourselves from cine all the way to pacific plaza to eat gapz. the food was q good but i was already dying after the first few plates. hahah. yep.

it was q a short day but i really enjoyed myself. once again, you guys made my day. it has been 3 consecutive yrs so far, and i'd feel so empty if you guys weren't there to spend my day with me. thanks for everything :) love the five of you so much.

siying's coming over to swin tmr. at NINE AM. pls i want to kill her. hahah but nvm la i'll take picture of her sexy figure. siying siying siying!

.. why must you do this to me. why must you ALWAYS do this to me. ah nvm whatever.

maybe in a way, i was still hoping you'd remember and send a msg or sth. i don't know what made me think you would, but it's alright cause in the end you didn't. and i don't think it really matters.

i don't know if it's wrong. i don't know. but i miss you.

8:37 PM

Sunday, May 30, 2004

i'm in a better mood :) i hope this will last till tmr's paper. because i have such a bad feeling that i won't be able to do my compo properly.

i had a bad dream yesterday. abt screwing up my os :'( but i dreamt about the same person for three days consecutively. and they've all been pretty good so far. hahah.

addicted to fir's lydia (talk abt slow) and energy's ramen song (even slower). nanana.

went to meet lisa for swensen's breakfast buffet this morning. she's damn idiot la.

haven't exactly been putting in my best. i think i'm being over confident. but i can't help it because i can't focus. i'm not so worried abt my paper two but i can't can't CAN'T afford to screw up my paper one. ok enough.

i need to go off to continue studying. able to concentrate more today than yesterday.

alright.



12:39 PM

Friday, May 28, 2004

if you looked in my eyes
would you see what's inside, would you even care.

4:42 PM

Wednesday, May 26, 2004

chinese is nearing, and i'm scared. what if i get an A2, or worse? i can't imagine. i'd have to waste millions of hours studying for the second one and that sucks. i wish chinese didn't have to be the first subject.

feeling really upset now. why do i always have to watch things turn for the worse and not be able to do a single thing.

i'm always trying to be the best friend i can be but it just doesn't seem to be enough.

ah nevermind i'm just ranting.

i've never bothered about what insignificant people say and i never ever would. so stop it because you're not getting anywhere. even if what're you saying is true, nothing can prove anything until it comes from me, isn't it?

don't test my patience, please don't test my patience.

alright. maybe i should just nap for awhile and continue with my chinese.




7:15 PM

Sunday, May 23, 2004

will be a long entry.

hmm. sister came back with the taiwan version of the snow angel soundtrack and a few toro mags :)

results. i was happy with my english, chinese and biology. B4 for english, failed paper 2 but paper 1 pulled me up. A1 for chinese :D and for the first time in my whole life, i actually pass a biology exam, got a B3. -gives stella a happy look- she passed it too!

yeah. but the rest of the results were q bad. i don't know. i really studied hard this time and i don't know why things still turned out like that. like i failed my amaths. not like i didn't expect it but it's just a different feeling altogether when you confirm the results. i worked really hard for it all year, and this just shouldn't be it. oh well. L1R5 21. shall not elaborate on the rest since they're so bad.

enough of results. told my parents and of course they gave the 'study so hard still like that' reaction but they didn't really torture me.

yesterday was great :) went tbp at 8am to queue up but there were already q alot. had to rush for phototaking at 1230 then rush back. oh man. yep. then toro came :D he's so, so, so good looking i tell you. and he sang well. hahah. yep. snapped pictures like every 3 seconds, with nette's camera cause mine ran out of battery even before the whole thing started. with nette's permission, will link her album too. thanks nette!

after that, went to town and back to tbp (glares) to get an energy vcd cause she wanted her kunda and i wanted my toro. came to my house, watched the vcd :) this ahdi can sing so well. nana came over, got a little high. hahah then they left at around 1030pm.

was a really tiring day but i enjoyed myself :) thanks nette! oh and linked her album. under snaps - toro.

need to do some chinese today.



10:33 AM

Saturday, May 22, 2004

it's been a long day. went to see toro and he's still so hot :) will talk abt it tmr, maybe.

more than two months since i last saw you, and it almost didn't matter anymore. but, i miss you.

10:40 PM

Tuesday, May 18, 2004

hmm. chinese intensive has been alright. passing pretty fast. maybe it's cause of the aircon, maybe it's cause of mdm lim, or maybe it's just chinese. i'm enjoying it. just that i'm really q sick of chinese already. it's like 8 papers in 2 days? and many more. -wipes sweat- it's alright. all would be worth it in the end :)

netball after school! annie, joyce, siying and i. da left with her friends. was tiring but fun. i don't know. i think i miss netball.

slacked with them in the library.

annie came over :) ate yummy curry. hahah. wanted to sleep but she just totally, totally didn't allow me to. made me do my work. so did abt 3/4 of my composition and finishing 1 paper already. she did loads of amaths. oh! and we had energy fun! hahah she was teaching me how to differentiate ahdi and shuwei's voices, cause every nice voice to me was ahdi's. hahah. now i kinda know. ahdi can sing so freaking well, and shuwei not bad too. those three useless bums ah. or maybe because we were listening to the slow songs.

lisa might be coming later tonight.

lynette's energy talking again. but it's ok. toro! :D

you can blame it all on me if it makes you happy. but i insist that you brought it all upon yourself. maybe i'm blinded by my own selfishness at this point of time, but nothing you do or say will change anything. maybe it would have, but you never did try.

wo yi ge ren bu gu dan, xiang yi ge ren cai gu dan


6:52 PM

Saturday, May 15, 2004

exams are finally over :) biology mcq was easy, but i think it was q tricky, because qns that i thought were really straightforward were asking different things from what i thought. or maybe it's just me. hahah. chemistry was q hard. after all the studying, i still think amaths and chemistry are my favourite :)

anyhow, it's over and next comes chinese intensive and i'm q excited.

yesterday was great :) firstly, annie, da, joyce and i baked a strawberry box chocolate sponge cake (hahah) on thursday! yep gave siying a surprise. baking cakes have been a must, and of course we wouldn't break that.

after that, went out, the six of us :) been such a long, long time i tell you. but yep. that's where i should be, they're who i belong to :) had loads of fun. laura had to leave cause she's in thailand now. the five of us watched troy! i didn't want to watch at first but i think it's nice. orlando bloom was so hot, too bad he was a loser. joyce left for tution, we walked around. hahah was really tired, while siying was trying to make us high. ate dinner at pasta mania, then home.

sigh. poor rain :( i love my dog alot.

anyway, was supposed to have a snow angel marathon with annie today again. but don't know if it'll come out today. but still hope she'll come!

oh yeah! toro's coming :D:D:D hahah going to the autograph session with nette next saturday. hahah the last time i did this was what.. p5. i think. but it's alright cause i LOVE toro.

that's it. i don't know why but i don't feel any different from what i felt during the exams.

wen zi ji, mei you ni wo xing bu xing
xian wei jing li kan ai qing,
can ku de fang da suo you ai de yuan ying

9:32 AM

Wednesday, May 12, 2004

happy birthday siying!

ahhh :) see, you'd better be honoured, because i'm online just to do this. i guess all that has to be said has been said. in the loooong sms, in the book, in everything i've said from 3 1/2 yrs ago all the way till now. yep. you've been a really big part of me, and thank you for your constant phone calls because they always make my day. always :) let's take this friendship and make it last yeah? and we'd make up for not celebrating, don't worry! oh and hope you liked it. know it isn't that creative, but i really did try ok! heh. alright. love you always :)

anyway, blogger gave me a scare. it's a weird change.

hmm. exams are semi over :D only biology and chemistry mcq left. yep, they're still impt, but the studying part has already been done. just gotta revise again later.

let's see. monday was biology and chemistry. both were alright i guess.. chemistry was a little hard. i really, really, REALLY want to pass my biology. even if it's just 50.1, i'd be fine with it.

tuesday was oh, emaths. hahah. rubbish man. even if i pass, it'll be a low one. but it's alright, cause i know i didn't work hard so i don't deserve anything. will buck up!

today.. sigh. i think i put too my pressure on myself for amaths. i just really wanted to do well, because it's sth i know i've worked hard in and sth i'm ok at. but i still didn't do it. i'm 80% sure i'd fail and this sucks. would be disappointing mrs gek :( and because i was doing amaths, i didn't even look at my history book yesterday. i've never done this, not even reading through before a major exam. only browsed through during recess, and i'm so lucky china came out because i can roughly remember it from common test. so it's like, hopefully, i'd get more than 3/25 for my structured. hahah. and i kind of screwed my source based up cause i wasn't in the mood. has so much time left, so ended up writing with my left hand and staring at miss malini. she's super funky.

nvm it's all over! over over over :D

oh. this lynette is crazy. she's completely, totally, fully crazy. over energy, over kunda. hahah. kunda is cute la but of course toro is still the best :D and i love yida too! hahah but it's alright. it's fun receiving her 'it's not them today' or 'i just saw kunda's picture where where where' msges everyday. hahah.

i think my left ear is going deaf. hmmm.

at least for now, you're still the one i think about every other night, still the one i miss every now and then.

off to sleep then study for my mcq!




2:59 PM

Saturday, May 08, 2004

taking a break from all the studying.

sigh. they already made studying for chemistry so easy yet i STILL feel like tearing the book up.

and i still have hmm.. 12 chapters of biology to go. all the chapters i don't want to do. wow. imagine studying for sexual reproduction in flowering plants. i'm seriosuly considering giving that a pass. hahah. i don't understand, i started way before but i'm still burning the midnight oil every single night.

let's see. yesterday was crazy. 4 1/2 hours of non-stop writing, social studies and literature. actually, my hand wasn't as tired as expected but the handwriting ah.. atrocious man. and switzerland came out! i'm damn lucky. i don't ask for much. i just want a pass for my ss and i know i'll fail my history so i need maybe a b3 or a2 for lit. possible?

they shouldn't have put both sciences together. they really shouldn't have. i mean, so it's an improvement from biology and history, but? nvm. oh., i'm 99% sure i'll fail my emaths but i hope i can get a b3 for my amaths. but i think that's too far fetched la.

mom's coming back from taiwan tmr! and i'm happy because she bought me yida and fir's cds! :D and toro toro toro!

siying's birthday is in four days time! although i know my present isn't exactly the nicest, but i just know she'd like it. heh. and that duck is so ego i tell you. shan't elaborate.

alright. back to redox and electrolysis. soon, i'll be able to memorise those two chapters backwards. but i dislike moles and energy change.

and jolin is the most disgusting person on earth. she has such big eyes and mouth, think they take up 9/10 of her tiny face. and the way she talks and her voice.. horrendous. but her songs are nice though.

there are things that mean too much for me to let go of, people too important for me to walk away from.

yu jian ni, zhi hou ai shang ni, ran hou hen tou ni
yuan lai ai shi hui bu qu de lu xing

xian hou wei jing xia de ai qing by huang yida. i think he's super cute and funky. (hahah got the silly song name wrong.)


12:34 PM

Thursday, May 06, 2004

you're nothing, nothing at all.

5:02 PM

Saturday, May 01, 2004

.. aren't you sick and tired of it?

11:08 AM